Thought I would post ..another
Member on this forum was nice enough to point out that I haven’t checked in with my progress in a while…
I am still struggling with control issues, that is I seem to think that there is someway I can control and enjoy this addiction!
But every time I go to play I do lose quite a bit, and two things that I noticed lately
The withdrawal symptoms I experience are really really prevalent and really strong and maybe I somehow believe they are too difficult to overcome and so I just given to gambling on that day?
Also I find it difficult when the feelings come in my head (I was told by an old sponsor that you cannot stop the thoughts coming into your head but you can certainly not listen to those thoughts)
And it’s tough to say “no”
But then I get upset because I’ve lost money? So that’s the insanity of this disease, I want to stop losing money but yet I want to somehow control the amount I gamble and also try and control
The thoughts coming in 😒
I find the posts on this forum very helpful, when people list how much sobriety they have, and the ways that they overcome their bad days…