10 years ago today I walked into an AA meeting and never looked back. I’m proud of myself for not picking up drugs or alcohol through this behavior relapse. So part of me new that it wasn’t worth the pain I was already in. Today I had the best day I’ve had in along time. I felt insanely free, all this crap I’ve been holding inside myself is finally out. That last repressed memory I had set me free my chains are finally unlocked. I feel happy and positive. I met with friends for breakfast one of the husband’s is my ex partners bestfriend and despite his anger at me for lying to his bestfriend about gambling he was really supportive and proud of me today. He said I looked happy and healthy. I went to my bestfriends place later today to and laughed for hours on end I felt like me for the first time in 2 years. I never thought I’d feel like this again but I new something was holding me back and now it’s released. It was that easy I just had to tap in and let it out. I’m extremely grateful today and thats one thing I plan to start writing on here daily is a gratitude list. I was stuck in the pain I was trying to heal but now it’s time to move on and start looking for the positives. So today I am greatful for bestfriends, my recovery, and my ability to laugh again.
