Hi Steev! Thank you so much for taking the time to write that reply.
I find what you’re saying very relateable. I’ve been doing a lot of self-reflection over the last couple of months and it was actually this that helped me to stop, instead of hitting the big £0 in my bank account that has done it before. (I didn’t have much left, but not much is better than 0!).
One realisation I had was that the business I’m building is taking a while to grow and I’m finding myself checking the numbers constantly. I know in my head that these things take time, but I constantly find myself impatient. Gambling was an easy way to get money quickly. Of course I would lose it immediately, but my brain wanted to see that incoming number. I had just put the blinkers on to all the negatives.
This is a big breakthrough for me and it gives me something real to work with. I’m so glad you spoke about your own experience because it confirms for me that I’m on the right path!
It’s horrible to think that these slips are a part of our recovery but they do teach us a lot don’t they?
Thank you again for sharing. I feel strong and know I’m heading in the right direction again 🙂