Hi K, I’m sorry your going through a turbulent time. In all honesty Im not sure there is an answer to when is the right time but I know you thought long and hard and would have made the decision based on what was right for your mum and not necessarily what was right for you
K you wrote „I just don’t need to gamble to do it. Im not sure if its a good thing or not but its how I am coping and I don’t know how to do it any other way…….yet”
Yet is a word that I always admire, it says that your looking at coping mechanisms, your relying on what you’ve learned over the last 4 years.. that Yet will become new skills of coping. You’ve proved to yourself just how resourceful and logical you are, dig deep and your find the answers
Take Care and come and chat if you need to
H