Thanks Sherry and Carole for your posts. I can’t believe that I am at 10 months today. The last time I put a cent in those machines was November 1, 2012. I got here one day at a time with the support of some wonderful and caring people. I also know that although I have achieved 10 months it does not mean that I am cured or that I will not end up playing those machines again. I pray to God that I don’t, but I know how easy it can happen. I know that I don’t get the thoughts and urges as bad, BUT just like that they can come out of nowhere. I just have to think of others who have had gamble free time and how it can happen. I am thinking of Larry, and I thank you Larry for posting that you gambled as it helps me see that we are never safe from this addiction. Also Sherrie (UK) who had 15 months gamble free. I know that thoughts of playing those machines do come sometimes, and I do have to fight to get them out of my head. I will work on keeping that fear, which I know is true, and that is as soon as I put one cent in those machines that I am helpless. I know that no win would be big enough and I would be pushing dollar bills in waiting for a jackpot that would not come, or if it did it would not be enough to make me smile. I would then proceed to put it all back in the machine and then feel like a loser and hate myself and then start chasing my losses. It would be the same old story over and over and over again!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
