Thank you (((Cat))) and (((P))) for your kind posts to my thread. Sorry (((P))) that you’re not in a great place right now. I wonder if you can do any one thing, even something small to change your situation (((P))). That is something I try and do when I don’t like where I’m at emotionally. I might do some laundry or do the sinkful of dishes; anything that will make me feel better about myself. (((Cat)))- as much as I tried to enjoy the course, all I did was watch the clock, ******** the number of hours before the course would be over. I finished it today and scored 100% on the exam. I hated all the practical on the floor stuff like the CPR and the treating of wounds and injuries. I’m good for 3 years now thankfully! I wanted to do something to celebrate getting that course over, but could not find anybody to do anything with. I need to enlarge my social circle in the city, but I prefer to isolate myself. It takes time to undo all the negative effects of our gambling years, and for many of us, we have few friends left, if any. For me by the time I got rid of toxic friends and family, I have little left in terms of real friends. I’d rather have no friends at this point than to have really unhealthy people in my life. I thought of going gambling, and had to remind myself that gambling isn’t a reward. I’m going to go buy myself a few pieces of new clothing for when I go back to work instead. I might do that tomorrow even. I am very much enjoying the new addition to my family, Pablo. The cats like each other and it happened quickly, even though they are both males. When I drove into my driveway, there was a jack rabbit eating in the yard, and he is so domesticated that he allowed me to walk past him/her, and didn’t hop away. I’m hoping I can get the rabbits that live around my place to eat food I put out in the winter. I am also planning to buy a condo before my lease is up at the end of June. But first I need to get working and I’m confident that I will in time. I’m only applying for jobs that I believe I would enjoy. Life is too short to work somewhere you hate. Carole
