[trinitysky]

These past three days have been the hardest days of all. I do however, feel a little better right now, in this moment. I have talked my boyfriends head off and we have come to some what of an agreement. We both want this to work. He’s not ready to give up he just needs time and space. I’m going to move for a while, not sure where to or for how long, but I know in my heart I’ll be coming back home at some point. I hope..
I go back to work tomorrow to finish my training. At least thats a positive note. Another positive note I’m still gamble free.
I’m so fearful of how this will turn out. I haven’t cried this much since my grandfather died. I will fix this. I will complete this recovery and I will come out better at the other end. I have to…