[mt4years]

Which part of my life haven’t I ruined? I can’t see past the debt; bitterness over relationship which I believe sent me over the edge to a place that is an unbelieveable hell. Lost respect from husband and don’t know which way to turn. Haven’t gambled in 8 weeks; no desire at this time; no money anyway  LOL    Hate getting up to face my life   Meetings 2 x week and counseling 1 x week.  Helpful; yes.  Not sure why I’ve chosen this life for myself when I had it all on track and woke up one day to find my world had exploded into a million tiny pieces. Spent 2 years maybe 3 pulling every dollar I could find to sooth my pain.  It hurts now in many different ways than before. I am determined to pull myself up by the bootstraps and make a new kinder, gentler, loving world.  Is there a chance to gain some peace and a ‘normal’ life again. Tell me it’s possible.  Have worked as an administrative office person/supervisor for over 15 years and was a huge success in that world.    I rest on hope and prayer at this juncture.  Any advice welcomed and appreciated.  I’m receptive to your thoughts and assistance through this forum.  One day at a time.  Thanks everyone.On the EDGE of Hope

[kathryn]

Hi M and welcome,
I have three words for you…..IT IS POSSIBLE!!!
My advice, use this site as often as you can, ensure you dont put yourself in the position to gamble again (eventually you will have money), ban from the sites/casinos you gamble in (and the rest if possible), you are already going to meetings and counselling (well done for that)
You are no longer alone, we all understand where you are, i look forward to hearing more from you.
Take care bye for now, Kathryn xxxTo live, that would be a great adventure – Peter Pan

[mike123]

Hi mt4years,
A Warm Welcome to Gambling Therapy
Having found us you have also found a diverse community who can help and support you on your recovery journey.
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and non-judgemental environment and by reading others stories am sure you will see that you are very much not alone in this addiction
Please click here to see our services page, feel free to use all that this site can offer…
To chat with others in real time you may wish to make use of the support groups, the ***** of these groups are advertised under "What’s on and When" or click here to see the weekly group schedule.
For one to one chat you may want to try the live advice helpline. Click "connect" when these options become available.
Also to say when you registered we would have sent you an email with an attachment, this attachment will help you navigate the site and find the support you so rightly deserve, alternatively this guide can be downloaded by clicking here.  
Take Care
Mike

[colin in brum]

Hi MT and welcome to the forum.  First – YES it IS possible.   You will be reading a lot of stories similar to your own on the other threads here.  You will also be reading the success stories – what are they doing that yoiu can apply to your own situation?
It sounds like you are already doing a lot of positive things – getting to meetings, counselling etc  How about self exclusion as well?  Thgings don’t get better overnight but they DO get better.  Just as importantly – they stop getting worse.  Keep[ posting, one day at a time.

[p]

Hi MT
It is great you have come here in the first place, well done it is a big step.  The first step to a new gamble free life.  If it doesnt happen for you straight away just keep trying and keep coming back.  Each time you gamble you can learn a bit more to prevent it happening next time.  Keep posting, stick to this site and good on you for doing counselling and meetings straight up.  You can do it.. Just for today dont gamble
 P – Living and Learning

[p]

Hey MT just seeing how you are going, keep coming back, dont give up, you are not alone
 P – Living and Learning

[mt4years]

TY to everyone who gave me a welcome and let me know that recovery is possible.  I have been continuing to go to meetings, and a gambling counselor who has helped me to see that I was trying to get the attention and strike back at my spouse when I was made to feel abandoned.  I know that I need to fix myself and not my significant other.  I am still looking for courage as it seems that around every corner I run into an obstacle.  I will continue to press myself as I know I am worth it; but I did have a major stumble … about three weeks ago.  I will share this and it is painful.
My husband was on vacation for a week so I left caring for my mother to stay with him for a few days to work on our relationship and damage to our home and finances.  While working around the home, I was on an extension ladder painting most of the day.  I moved it after we had lunch to a very difficult position and did not secure it properly.  At least I didn’t GAMBLE … but I fell between 10-12 feet on my back on our deck and fractured my back in 3 places, broke some ribs, huge laceration in my arm needing like 15 stitches and was rushed in to the trauma center.  Four days, and this was three weeks ago.  They did not do surgery, nor cast, but felt my back will heal if I can let it without reinjury.  So I have spent 3 weeks fighting pain, and trying to rest.  It’s difficult and all I can think is it’s God’s way of slowing me down to focus on my life and lifestyle.  I have almost 90 days w/o gambling and my family has been there for me and I am so thankful. 
Now, what to do about what sent me to the machines in the first place.  My home life is not giving me what I need emotionally, spiritually, etc. etc. so I don’t want to go home and be right back where I started.  I moved out once for 6 months, returning to promises that have fallen by the wayside and hearing every day how ‘WE DON’T HAVE ANY MONEY’ and I saw the neatest _ _ _ _ _   (insert anything), if we had the money, we could  …..  I spent years and years in support of my partner’s hobbies and collections, restoring antique boats, guns, guitars, clothes, shoes (I KNOW he’s a shopaholic and / or OCD) and that I’m sure is partially why I snapped and decided to throw it all at the machines.  How do I move forward in the face of this. 
Really missed visiting GT, but I have lots of pain to sit and type … but I wanted to thank everyone who has encouraged me to stick with it and use the GT resources …   I will keep at it !    On the EDGE of Hope

[mt4years]

Originally posted by P

Hey MT just seeing how you are going, keep coming back, dont give up, you are not alone
P – Living and Learning
Recovering from a fall; so I haven’t been able to visit for weeks.  In hospital for 4 days and now trying to recover with a broken back and ribs.   Thanks for the msg.  Encouraged !   LDG was 5-31-10On the EDGE of Hope

[paul315]

Originally posted by mt4years

… Is there a chance to gain some peace and a ‘normal’ life again. Tell me it’s possible. …
      and,
On the EDGE of Hope
Good morning MT, my name is Larry and I am a compulsive gambler, my last bet was August 13, 2009. I would like to add my belated welcome to you to GT. As your have found out, it is a great help in our recovery over this addiction of compulsive gambling.
Congratulations on your time being gambling free, it is a great achievement reaching the 3 Month milestone; well done. Keep up the efforts that you have begun and keep up with your visits here; you will find many other way to help in your journey. Sorry about your fall; but as a CG I am happy that it was from a latter and not off the "EDGE of Hope".
God’s speed. Stay strong.Larry"Day Two Is Another Day Behind" – With the help of a Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT, I will continue to be  gambling free.

[mt4years]

Thanks Larry, reading some of your posts earlier last eve … you are very inspiring. Thanks much and I’ll be back .  It does help to read from others and gives me hope.  tyOn the EDGE of Hope

[Auteur]

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