Losing it slowly, thanks so much for your post. I have learned the need to let my guilt/anger/remorse go after a relapse and focus on what I can do better and what blocks I can put in place to prevent myself from gambling. I do allow myself to feel those feelings and how low I am in that moment and vow to not put myself in that spot by gambling again. 99% of the time I don’t want to gamble, it’s that 1% that does so much damage. I need to figure out how to have more blocks in place to get over those urges to gamble during that time. I really do feel like I go 7 steps forward and then 6 steps back each time I stop gambling for a time and then slip, however I am still 1 step ahead and I need to appreciate those small gains and keep working towards staying gamble-free.
