Losingitslowly,
Thank you. And you are so right,
that is so me when I go to play. I would go alone, and just hearing everyone around me getting loud just annoyed the heck out of me. Especially, if all they won was $20-$30…
I socialize fine at work Monday-Thurs, but I really don’t want to see them again until next Monday when I leave Thursday afternoon.
If someone would have told me this would be my life 11 years ago, I would have laughed and said „you’re crazy as heck, because I would never throw away money like that, that’s crazy”…. But here I am.
I already thought something was wrong with me because I never cared to be around people, now I have to spend my energy on not going to do something that honestly give me the most excitement, whether I’m winning or losing. The pain and embarrassment don’t hit until your money is gone and you realized you have screwed up once more.
Thank you again for sharing, and encouragement.