Today is payday! The urge to gamble reeks all over the place. But, as I opened my bank account online, there was a huge amount of money to be paid early next month waving at me. It’s more than 3 months of my full paycheck and that’s not the only debt I have now. It’s a bad thing to see such an amount pressing me to its due date, but I am thankful I saw that. I suddenly came to my senses; it reminded me how much gambling ruined me. I started opening up to people I love about my addiction as well so there will be people motivating me to this new path I want to take. It’s crazy thinking about how I can pay all these debts I have now, but what’s important for now is to keep my focus on this goal of beating this addiction. I’m also looking for another job to help me pay off my loans. I was inspired by a story I’ve read here in a journal. I forgot his name, but his story was marked in my head. He’s someone I’m looking up to right now. I want to be as dedicated as him. I pray that I, no we, will be successful as well in recovering.
