***** wizefox. Like many stories in the forum, we can all compare similarities and stories that all end in the same way, and my story in the last few months couldn’t be any more similar to yours. I had my gambling at a controlled level over the last 2 years until around 6 months ago when I started getting greedy again. Our addiction is so strong, it seems we will never be happy with what we have got. I was winning large amounts with pretty small stakes compared to my usual (the best feeling in the world), on football betting, slots and other vices, to name a few. My lucky streak was in, but like all lucky streaks, they come to an end. And when ‘our’ lucky streaks come to an end, we can’t just walk away. An example which I’m sure you could compare is me winning £1800 in a weekend from an initial £30. I lost £100 of this and tried to be ‘safe’ by upping my stakes on lower prices, just to win that back….Over the space of 4 hours I had lost it all. That feeling from being so lucky, ecstatic, had already planned what to do with the money, it had all gone in the space of a few hours. Then the hurt, anger and sadness kicks in. The sad thing is, after all the heart ache we have after putting ourselves through that, we always go back. I had a few lucky streaks where I’d won considerable amounts in the last 6 months, but they all ended in the same way.
My last bet was 34 days ago after I had lost yet again over £1000 at the click of my fingers. I came back on this forum and started looking into getting serious help. I too today have applied for Gordon Moody. I may have to lose my job to go and have already lost a relationship recently. But in hindsight, I know what is most important, and that’s my future well being. Your not alone mate. Hope we can both beat this.
Living is winning, gambling is losing
