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Originally posted by paul315

…I cannot let recovery control by life like gambling did, I can only let it guide me …
The above line came from what I thought was to be the beginning of me posting more more often about my everyday life. However, that brief thought was interrupted by my actually living life and being more busy than I have been in quite some time. I was reminded of this post and my intent by Tim’s post about going forward with his life, so I will try to start again, but can only try.  My post in "Our Daily Pledge" comes natural after a time of meditation and "googling" subject matters pertaining to gambling, and my replies to others is an extension of that process and is also reminders and guidance for my own actions. But for me to journal an account of my daily, of even periodic, actions seams to take more effort then I care to extend (If I would curtail my thoughts it would not be a big effort).
I am also taking this time to welcome the new members that have joined during my busy time; a belated welcome to you all – My name is Larry and I am a compulsive gambler, my last bet was August 13, 2009. 
However, today I want to post about my activities. The reason is that it is testimony to my being in recovery and how it has allowed me to enjoy the past days. First, as I have mentioned in the chat rooms, I am moving. I don’t have a lot of things or accumulated stuff, but packing it is still occupying time between the other events. My move does have a big drawback; I will be without readily access to the Internet, I will have to go to "hot spots’ for the next few weeks.  It is hard to believe that hooking up new phone service in a large city of the USA can take 7 weeks to get to – I would think that all they would have to do is flip a switch.
Another thing that has been keeping me busy and away from this site is that I am helping my son-in-law work on additions to their home. Not only is this time consuming, but recuperating from actually doing work and manual labor is a big thing for a old man. Nevertheless, the pleasure in helping is worth every blister and sore mussel.
Now about the thing that has been keeping me busy the most. I have been helping my wife in France work on a paper for her work. It has to be done in English so she is sending be part of her work each day for me to make suggestions and changes to her infrequently used English. Not only is it to be in English, but some of the Queen’s English is needed and not just America’s version or that from the lads in the respective pubs and bars. So I find myself depending on a "4th G", here again I am using ‘G’oogle a lot. Doing this to me is a huge thrill, and her asking offers even a greater feeling.  It is a cross between my making amends and a virtual being there when she needs something.  Not returning to my life there and leaving her with the responsibilities of being a single parent, is one thing that still haunts me. I know that this is not opening a door for reconciliations, but it is opening the door for going forward. 
So this is an account of my past days; and even more it is an account of the results of my living gambling free – neither gambling or recovery is controlling my life, being gambling free is letting be live it.LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all , I will continue to remain gambling free.