My Current Triggers
People: Mr E ( Alcohol ), Ms K ( ex gf )
Places: Saturday ( Gambling day )
Things: money , too much free time, not enough rest and fatigue, stress.
Feelings
Mr E called to meet up tonight, I turn him down with a new excuse that I am busy with a new exercise program.
Ms K message me today, strange that she do so after what happen last week, apparently she is not strong enough to stay away completely. I did not want to make it any difficult for both of us and did not start any discussion with her.
I thought I was fine after giving myself a break yesterday and slept. Sleep was difficult, I cannot sleep in the beginning with all the muscle aches.
Thoughts
It did cross my mind to gamble today. The season starts today.
I did not want to grab on the thought for too long.
Action Plan
I knew I must get out of the house and do my walk a jog.
I must do something with my free time
It is too dangerous to let my mind drift, the signs are there.
My day 5
I can feel a little stress when I jog today,
feel like giving up very early after 3 km.
Then it start to drizzle after I passed 4 km
it became a perfect reason for me to stop and go home
175 more days to go……
