Greetings Soliloquy,
You have taken a really big step. You’ve decided to get professional treatment and reached out for support from others, as hard as that was for you. It also sounds like you are ready to make a change by sharing your story. As Bettie says, there is no one here who has not been where you are. Some of us are just a little bit further down the road, and we will all tell you the same thing: What you are feeling now, you will not always feel. I am a very private person, and talking to others during my first week of recovery (36 days ago) was a tremendous help. So, however you can find a way to talk to other Compulsive Gamblers or support community…it may take time and effort, but the benefits will far outweigh the potential discomfort. Take care and good thoughts your way.
