I did not have a good upbringing, it is not my parent fault.
We were poor and my mother was lowly educated.
Those days, it was always not enough and mum was always trying to make ends meet every month
She works extremely hard to feed and bring up her children.
She is a good mother, she did what she can with what little she had.
My father has more than one wife. He is not home all the times.
He drink and gamble. In his last days, he lost all his money.
I remember he need to borrow to pay for my youngest brother education.
I was given this embarrassing and shameful duty against my will to travel a long distance to collect this borrowing from people that I was meeting for the first time one evening, I was afraid and angry.
The poor neighborhood that I grew up did not provide me the environment and opportunity to pick up the skill I need in adulthood. I was not tough or smart enough. I have never talk about all these things before.
Working my character defect in the step work and journaling has given me the opportunity to release all these negative energy.
Repent before it is too late.