Did I regret my decision to place the first bet? Yes
After placing my all or nothing bet, I really regretted not doing what I have been doing to stay gamble free.
I was looking at a big loss and more debt – it made me feels very stupid, willful and self-centered.
I should have know what will happen in the end.
I was lucky this time. I escape without damage.
My barriers work on most days but not all the day.
I have ask someone to safekeep my saving for me and I cannot use them for gambling.
I carry bank card with me incase I encounter unexpected need to use money;
it was this bank facility that I use to get money to gamble and they charge a pretty high interest.
When I wanted to gamble, I did not care about the high interest.
It was a dangerous act, it was a very high risk gamble.
I can feel myself losing my self-control.
I could have lose my self-control completely if I had carry on gambling.
Repent before it is too late.
The heavy consequences and costly price is not worth it.
After I place my first bet, next bet and last bet, I really think that I have made a very bad decision.
I made a big mistake when I did not practice staying away from danger
It was my rest day, I did not stay away from places that accept my bet and I have borrowed to gamble;
I did all the wrong things otherwise the first bet will not occur.