Hi Sunny, good to see you start a new thread for the next part of your recovery.
I think they call that testing Sunny. Where we almost want to try and see if maybe we can gamble normally again. Like maybe now that the blood isn’t boiling with the fever of gambling and we are thinking like a rational human being we could gamble just a little. But very quickly we learn that the illness/addiction is still in us. Just sleeping. And once it is awoken by that first bet it comes back hungrier than ever. So the good news is that you have now experienced this and know that the illness/addiction is always going to be there waiting for you to give it an opportunity. Good that it hasn’t affected your chance to own a home. Good that you know you need to keep your recovery tools in place and sharpened. Vera is so right, make sure you have barriers in place to protect any saving you are doing. Savings have been blown before, it’s like a recovering drug addict walking around with a pocket full of drugs. Now you know so much more the effects of savings and maybe complacency on a recovering CG. Congratulations on all of your recovery days. The good thing is they are a habit you will remember. Nothing takes them away. Stay strong, you can do this.
Laura
