[siroko]

Hello everyone, I have been betting since 14-5 years old, now I am 30, first 5 years was only jokes it was with very little amount given to my age. But after I started working and getting paid some part of all my wages goes to betting sites. Still all was under control I thought but nothing was like that. The last two years are kind of insane for me. Nothing bad happend to me, but I never stopped gambling, trying to repay all my debts, but the only thing that happens is that they are only growing. I am at point where i don’t know what to do really. I have a really nice girlfriend, loved by my family, but still doing this shit. I think to speak with my mother first about all that, but still very a shame of me and everything, trying to find the power in me to do it. I read a lot stories here for last couple days and I can see that I’m not alone in that, just really want to share my thoughts with someone.
Have a nice evening all and thanks for the time to read my confused text and sorry for the grammar errors but the English is not my first language

[siroko]

Day One again after little relapae. Trying to stay on the right path but its Hard.

[nlynch91148]

Hi siroko,

Lovely to meet you. I am 31 and on Saturday I told my wife that i have a problem with gambling. On saturday I self excluded my self from all the site that i had been using and i also downloaded an app called Gamban which blocks your access to over 50,000 gaming and betting sites worldwide. I got a free 6 month subscription and I can honestly say its probably the best thing anyone can you. Once its downloaded and youve been set up. You cant even delete the app.

[siroko]

Hello, nlynch, thank you for the reply. I encounter difficulties to find a way to tell my mother or someone else around me. Feeling ashamed and weak, but i know its time to face the consequеnces of my behavior.

[Relapseking]

hey Siroko.

You arent alone mate, im right here with you. Im on day 1 too. im 29 years old and been gambling for a long time too but like you, the last few years have been the worst. I earn very good money but have absolutely nothing to show for it, my mates have all bought homes (some of them have bought multiple houses) and I earn more than them yet I am not at the same stage as them. its embarrassing for me and I have to lie about saving all my money because im too ashamed to say i lost everything. we can do this though. im trying to find new things to do now to force myself to become a different person and not stick to what im doing on a daily basis now. I want to change and need to change so we need to figure out how to re-wire our brains into believing we are on a new journey. ill be on here everyday if you ever want to chat. im going to try post daily on how many days free i have been. As of now im on day 1. I can do this, you can do this. we can do this. the future is so bright dude, it just takes change!

[siroko]

Hello everyone. From today I will keep count and accountabillity for mine actions here.

So for start:

One day Gamble free!

Feeling kind of numb and exhausted but One day at a time.

[ujju197]

Hello Siroko,

Welcome back to the board, and request you to stick with the plan. (Stay away from the first killing bet).

I have gone through all this trauma, three times in just 2 years. Feeling shame and guilt. Spoiling myself and my family future. But this time I have came here with Rigid Spirit that I will stay away from the first killing bet.

So, just request “Be Honest with yourself and your loved ones”; everything will be fine soon.

[siroko]

Hi ujju197,

You are tottaly right. Still don’t have the guts to speak with someone cloae to me but I am getting there slowly.

3 days Gamble free and feeling good for now.

[ujju197]

Hello Siroko,

Its good to read that you have completed 3 days as clean. Just keep the guard On; don’t fall prey to the Illusion that we can ever win in Gambling.

Take baby steps to the recovery, believe me this is the toughest thing I am going through too. But we all have to be strong. We have to accept, that we have ruined things and we are the only one who is responsible to get things fine. But, it will take time and lot of patience. We are like Tortoise in this race, it will be slow but if we stick; we will be the Winner one day. (pain is temporary and glory is forever).

[siroko]

8 days passed and I am still gambling free. I feel generally good not to waate money, time and emotions in gambling. The thiinking of the debts and how to fix them is a bit harder part in the last days for me.

[tommy123]

Hi mate good luck with your journey. I’m a 30 year old compulsive gambler. Done everything you can think of to stealing money off loved ones and lieing etc. I am off to the Dudley Monday(31st)jan so. As I’ve no other option than to try and create a better life for myself. Good luck on your journey.

[gary1977]

Well done on your 8 days gambling free !!
It’s a great start and possible to keep focused and maintain a gambling free life, I have conquered so far nearly 3 1/2 years without gambling.
I regularly go to my GA meeting on a Monday which I find helps and now I am in a position to give back and help others just starting there journey to stay off this horrible addiction.
It’s all possible, just stay focused and take a day at a time.
All the best Gary
(Ex resident of Gordon moody association 2007)

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