Don, My friend, you are in the same place, you need to move from ( I need to control it ) to ( I need to overcome this addiction).
yes, the gambler part in your brain will be there trying to pull you back to gambling but at least the rational part of your brain should be totally convinced that you can’t control gambling, read books about gambling, and watch youtube videos about it. do all that you can do to move from position 1 to position 2 where you are planning how to really recover from this addiction.
I know it is hard to do this transition, it took me a long time to do so. but this needs to be done to start your real recovery.