[bettie]

Hi Guy,
Where to start right?
There is nothing that you have done that most compulsive gamblers haven’t done. By the same token most of the things you speak of can be fixed.
Can you get to a GA meeting? You will find people there just like you ( and me ) who "know" you-even if they don’t "know" you.
Sucide is a perminate soloution to a tempory problem.
Have you looked at the 20 GA questions? I can answer "yes" to 19 of the 20 questions.
my best to you
bettie