I was having my hot coffee and had the following thoughts:
After I journal in GT and put everything down in words, I seem to be able to see the picture clearer and it helps me see a better choice. When I speak to an addiction counsellor, recovery mentor or sponsor, I was hoping they can help me see a better picture and help me to make the correct choice.
Today I ask here:
What was the same for me yesterday and today?
What was the difference for me between yesterday and today?
The stress from eczema remains the same. The stress from my long hours at work remain the same.
Yesterday I was stress by both eczema, and exhaustion from work.
Today I was only stress by eczema after the sleep and rest I had yesterday, I am no more exhausted. I have regained my strength and energy that I need to cope with the stress from my eczema and job.
There are days when I have more stress, I can get stress by a few things at the same time. Stress on top of stress threaten to make me weak and break.
It was more difficult and harder to manage stress when I am weaker. I cannot find the inner strength and energy that I need to resist the trigger, distraction, temptation and need to escape any pain, hardship and suffering.
Everything returns to normal today. I went to the atm machine to withdraw money for grocery, not gambling. I walk to the supermarket to purchase grocery, not to a live betting house to gamble.
I do not have to live with regrets after I have lost money gambling yesterday
and I do not have to live with guilt after I have won money gambling yesterday.
Instead I had peace of mind, safety and security today.