As I wash my face
My head is telling me to go drinking, it is ok to gamble.
After I finished washing my face
I understand that I have acted out in the past to escape uncomfortable, hard and stressful times; and ease the pain.
I cannot remember what I was busy with in 2023?
I check my inventory:
I started the current job in 2023.
My mum was sick and passed away in 2023.
I suffered from impulse control disorder, and obsessive control disorder. I can be impulsive and lose control of my emotion easily, I have self-destructed many times in the past.
Today I am not following my feelings and reasons to go out gamble or drink when I choose to stay home; stay away and walk away from danger.
I only need to stay clean and sober today.
I need to stick to the plan all the way to the end today.
Tomorrow, I do the same.
One day at a time.