[gustav101]

Day 12 for me today. All my debt payments caught up, that I missed last month, when I went on a gambling spree, that made me decide, this was the last time. I still get thoughts about, what if I can make it work, and the short answer is, I can’t make it work. I don’t have the discipline to only trade 1 or 2 percent of my bank roll on a daily basis. My brain is not like the other people who can make it work for them, they are different from me, I need to accept that. My strong suits are somewhere else. Dark messaged my the other day, to really try and understand why I gamble like I do, and I am still on that journey to figure out why I am doing it.