Chasing a loss means we lose more 3raser.
Everything we chase we lose and everything we lose we chase (I think P said that first)
Every time I was given overtime at work or a bonus or back pay, I always gambled it in….. advance.
Back to the drawing board is the only place you will find solace.
You need to step up on support and somehow prevent access to money.
Maybe come to a Live Group?